April 9, 2009 - Good Friday
Well, its finally arrived. After being together for 11 years Kevin and I have both arrived at the point where we want to start a family.
I have always worried about having enough money to start a family. And for the past few years I think I have just put it off in the back of my head because of the money thing.
But to be honest I started to notice I was tired of hearing about others having kids. That's when I realized I was being bitter. I was mad at them for a choice we made.
The fact is - if my sister can do it.... so can we. We have always dealt with every situation that has been given to us with the ability to make it happen.
I think it was the birth of my friend Sommer's little boy Weston that made me take that next step.
I am glad I waited till I was 30 to start a family. I feel that Kevin and I really know who we are as individuals and as a couple. And with out that solid base of who we are the foundation in which we build our family on will not be stable.
I think I actually startled Kevin a bit by the quick change of mind. In fact I was ready to get off the birth control that I had been on for 11 years back in February. But because of my quick change of mind Kevin wanted to make sure I was ready and asked me to stay on for one more month. At first I was hurt. I thought he was getting cold feet. That we would never get on the same page. But after a little talk he explained that he just wanted to make sure I was ready.
It's not like I haven't been thinking of having kids for a while. In fact it was Jayden that made me feel like I was ready and I wanted one of my own. So for over 2 years now I have been thinking about it. I also wanted to make sure Kevin was ready to make the next step.
The whole Facebook experience has really made us both think about family. We see people with whom we went to school with and their families. We have both made comments that we always feel like we are 5 years behind everyone. 5 year behind getting married. 5 years behind having kids. But you know what? I am glad that we have taken our time. The only regret that I have right now is not having been to Europe yet. But that trip is still in the planning stages right now and hopefully we will be taking a little bundle of joy with us.
I am also trying to be more informative reading up on sites. But I think that this may also be a bad thing for me. I know it is going to take me a while to get back on my regular cycle. After being on BC for 11 years my body is probably all out of wack. And that is one thing I need to stop reading about on these mommy sites. I think I sat there for 30 minutes this morning reading about all of these different women who were on the same birth control I was on and the difficulties they have been having trying to concieve. I actually started to panic and worry if that was going to be me. Was I going to have the same problems? In 6 months will I still be messed up and not able to concieve because we spent 10 years not trying to get pregnant. And that is the last thing I need to do is add the added pressure of getting pregnant and it sticking. I am trying to prepare myself for the first two pregnancies not to stick. But I was not even thinking of the fact that it might take me a while to get pregnant.
The Doctor said 3 months.
So come July I should have the BC out of my system. Give us a few months to get one of the little guys to stick and hopefully by Christmas we can be pregnant. I need to remind myself this when it seems like its not working.
Not many people know that we are trying. In fact only there are only three. I wanted to tell Pam because we were going to be starting L+C together. I didn’t want to venture into a business partnership without telling her. The other two sort of slipped out. Laura and Lucy. I am actually worried about the added stress that Lucy might cause me – because she is soooooooo wanting me to have a child.
Because no one knows we are are trying to start a family I wanted to document the pregnancy on the blog but not post anything until the situation allows me to.
So there it is... the Introduction of Our Pregnancy Adventure!
Well, its finally arrived. After being together for 11 years Kevin and I have both arrived at the point where we want to start a family.
I have always worried about having enough money to start a family. And for the past few years I think I have just put it off in the back of my head because of the money thing.
But to be honest I started to notice I was tired of hearing about others having kids. That's when I realized I was being bitter. I was mad at them for a choice we made.
The fact is - if my sister can do it.... so can we. We have always dealt with every situation that has been given to us with the ability to make it happen.
I think it was the birth of my friend Sommer's little boy Weston that made me take that next step.
I am glad I waited till I was 30 to start a family. I feel that Kevin and I really know who we are as individuals and as a couple. And with out that solid base of who we are the foundation in which we build our family on will not be stable.
I think I actually startled Kevin a bit by the quick change of mind. In fact I was ready to get off the birth control that I had been on for 11 years back in February. But because of my quick change of mind Kevin wanted to make sure I was ready and asked me to stay on for one more month. At first I was hurt. I thought he was getting cold feet. That we would never get on the same page. But after a little talk he explained that he just wanted to make sure I was ready.
It's not like I haven't been thinking of having kids for a while. In fact it was Jayden that made me feel like I was ready and I wanted one of my own. So for over 2 years now I have been thinking about it. I also wanted to make sure Kevin was ready to make the next step.
The whole Facebook experience has really made us both think about family. We see people with whom we went to school with and their families. We have both made comments that we always feel like we are 5 years behind everyone. 5 year behind getting married. 5 years behind having kids. But you know what? I am glad that we have taken our time. The only regret that I have right now is not having been to Europe yet. But that trip is still in the planning stages right now and hopefully we will be taking a little bundle of joy with us.
I am also trying to be more informative reading up on sites. But I think that this may also be a bad thing for me. I know it is going to take me a while to get back on my regular cycle. After being on BC for 11 years my body is probably all out of wack. And that is one thing I need to stop reading about on these mommy sites. I think I sat there for 30 minutes this morning reading about all of these different women who were on the same birth control I was on and the difficulties they have been having trying to concieve. I actually started to panic and worry if that was going to be me. Was I going to have the same problems? In 6 months will I still be messed up and not able to concieve because we spent 10 years not trying to get pregnant. And that is the last thing I need to do is add the added pressure of getting pregnant and it sticking. I am trying to prepare myself for the first two pregnancies not to stick. But I was not even thinking of the fact that it might take me a while to get pregnant.
The Doctor said 3 months.
So come July I should have the BC out of my system. Give us a few months to get one of the little guys to stick and hopefully by Christmas we can be pregnant. I need to remind myself this when it seems like its not working.
Not many people know that we are trying. In fact only there are only three. I wanted to tell Pam because we were going to be starting L+C together. I didn’t want to venture into a business partnership without telling her. The other two sort of slipped out. Laura and Lucy. I am actually worried about the added stress that Lucy might cause me – because she is soooooooo wanting me to have a child.
Because no one knows we are are trying to start a family I wanted to document the pregnancy on the blog but not post anything until the situation allows me to.
So there it is... the Introduction of Our Pregnancy Adventure!
