Arianne's random thoughts on being pregnant… #1

Whoever said being pregnant was a beautiful thing… well, I don't think they experienced the first trimester. A perfume I would have loved before now makes me sick. I am starting to fell less like a lady. The constant gas that now makes Kevin proud of me and the multiple trips to the bathroom is starting to get on my nerves. And the physical changes are starting to make me feel like a completely different person.

Like today… I am really moving slow. I am so out of shape. I am beat after working last night. I didn't even get up early enough to take a shower. I'm also exhausted after doing a show. When I got home from the theater today all I wanted to do was curl up in my bed and sleep. For the first time I am having issues with working multiple jobs. Not to mention that my stomach is not being my best friend right now.

Not only am I starting to have physical changes but I am mentally starting to worry about things. For one, I have been avoiding doing anything physical in hopes of not causing a miscarriage. Everything I do, I think “Will this make me lose it?” I know it's not healthy. I'm only focusing on myself. Mistakes that I should be able t correct are happening on stage with the girls. So now I worry about my ability to do my job and the effect this pregnancy is having on my performances.

I know these physical and emotional changes are part of it… I just hope I can regain some sort of who I am (physically and mentally). And for the changes that will take over, I just pray I have the strength to be ok with them.

The Waves of Nausea

So my time of morning sickness has come. The past four days have been kind of rough. I've had constant nausea but very thankful that I have not gotten sick. Smells now seem to be my archenemies. I can't go anywhere without my nose taking me to overdrive.

Yesterday morning, I thought having a little breakfast before the show would help me out. I went to Einstein Brothers to get a bagel. The smell upon walking through the door was so overwhelming that not even 5 steps in I was about to lose it. I quickly got my breakfast and headed to the theater. The first thing I did was change out of my clothes. I wasn’t even in the store for 5 minutes and all I could smell was the store on my clothes. I even took some of my body spray from Crabtree and Evelyn and sprayed my clothes in hopes to mask the smell but to my dismay after the show I still smelled like store.

I am very thankful that I am able to get through doing the show with no major mishaps. But I was curious to see how my shift tonight is going to go. It was the first shift since I started to feel sick. Thank God the only issue I had was the Bloomin’ Onion. So I guess I won’t be eating that for a while.

I was also very excited that I was finally able to eat a full meal at dinner. I was starting to be concerned about not eating enough for the baby. I liked it a lot more when I was eating us out of house and home…